I moved to San Francisco nearly six months ago to start a new life and
pursue an education at UC Berkeley.

In the beginning, things went according to plans.
I made many new friends.
I embarked in many crazy adventures.
I attended classes during the Fall semester at CCSF.
I painted and decorated my bedroom in an expression of creativity
inspired by my summer travels.
I was waiting to find my own place until I hear back from UC Berkeley.

In September I met Nick.
Despite my desire to remain single while I became acquainted with
my new surroundings, I really liked him. In many ways, Nick has
aided in my discovery of San Francisco and in my own personal

In two days Nick moves to Chicago for a new job.

I don’t regret asking for his number that morning,
but I still feel foolish.
I love him.
This wasn’t supposed to happen.

I thought I knew what I wanted, where I was headed.
Now I’m afraid to let him go.
I’ve started to devise a Plan B, which seems very reasonable.

I am reminded of my parting moments with Erik.
We said goodbye in New Orleans during my roadtrip headed East.

In two days, Nick and I depart in Chicago.
Upon arrival, he begins a new life and I return via airplane.

I don’t want to do this again.


  1. onewomynarmy on 01.24.2006

    i love ebtg…. good stuff. tracey thorn and ben watt… good music.


  2. jamisononfire on 01.25.2006

    Good luck Mikey,

    I really hope this works out for you both.

  3. onewomynarmy on 01.25.2006

    I’m sorry that you are so sad right now – I know how it feels. The empty hole within the cages of your heart..
    Things will get better and if it is meant to be, it will. I have no doubt about that.

    Lemme know if there is anything I can do to lessen the blow of all of this. =/


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