said too much – versus

10.02.2003


i hear too much
in this republic
of desembodied minds
and shocking headlines
all i want is to go to the end of the world
and pan for gold

i said too much
you are the blackboard
and i am the claw
like a mammoth in thaw
all i want all i need is a desert island
with palm trees

i felt too much
flame or love or desire
i got lost in the headlights
and you were always right
i know it’s true.

BEARDS!!!

10.02.2003

So out of nowhere tells me we should drive
to Carson City on Halloween weekend.

Turns out the World Beard and Moustache Championships
are being held there this year.

So I start to think, how amazing would that be?
To see everything I’ve wanted to see along that
drive: Mono Lake, Yosemite, Devil’s Postpile,
Tahoe.

(Not to mention all of that geocaching along the way.)

This would be a killer road trip. One that will
truly be about the adventure of getting there.
I mean sure there’s a goal/destination, but that
event only actually lasts for a few hours.

I’ve been relishing the notion of a trip/adventure lately.
The drive up to Santa Barbara was neat, and only
made me desire such a trip even more. This is so perfect.
No wonder Danielle is my best friend!
:):):)

Don’t be Sorry

10.02.2003


there’s no way i could have changed your mind
a feelings just a feeling it’s not a crime

close your eyes it’s just a dream
sometimes things aren’t what they seem
don’t be sorry
sometimes stories end that way

close the door it’s too late
sometimes stories end that way
you’ll be sorry
sometimes people change their ways

I hate being pee shy

10.01.2003

I just don’t get it.

I simply can not bring myself to empty my
bladder when another person walks into
the bathroom.

It’s embarrassing and annoying!

Employment potential?

10.01.2003

So Joy walks by and tells me she wants
to talk to me about something when I
have a moment.

Nervous, I walk back to her office and
sit down.

Turns out, her boss has finally agreed
that she needs a bigger staff. He went
so far as to say that she would be able
to hire two new people. He told her
that it would happen, it was just a
question of when.

She then asked whether I’d be interested
in full time employment.
I said yes, I prefer full time employment.

She seemed pleased with my response.
She said that would be ideal, since I’ve
already been here for several months.
Hiring someone new would involve a learning
curve, and it’d be easier to just hire
someone that’s already familiar with the
systems.

woohoo! benefits & insurance here I come!

When will I learn?

10.01.2003

Arg.
I need to learn to save.
To keep a cushion
in case of these situations…

My timesheet was an hour late, and unsigned.
Timesheets are due by noon on Tuesday.
My boss was out on Monday.
I had an orthodontist appointment on Tuesday.
I get in at 12:45 and fax what I have.

So now the paycheck I would normally get this
Friday will be issued NEXT Friday.

What this means:
-Rent will be one week late.
-A badly needed brake job will be postponed one week.
-An overdue oil change will be postponed one week.
-Picking up my recovered hard drive will be posponed one week.
-No partying for me this weekend.

I spent most of the $ I have left on food.
Figure, better spend it now while it is there so
I know for sure I’ll at least be fed.
The rest can pay for gas (hopefully).

170

10.01.2003


Through the warmthest cord of care
Your love was sent to me
I’m not sure what to do with it
Or where to put it

I’m so close to tear
And so close to
Simply calling you up
And simply suggesting

We go to that hidden place

Now, i have been slightly shy
But i can smell a pinch of hope
To almost have allowed once fingers
To stroke
The fingers i was given to touch with
But careful careful

There lies my passion hidden
There lies my love
I’ll hide it under a blanket
Lull it to sleep

I’ll keep it in a hidden place

He’s
The beautifullest
Fragilest
Still strong
Dark and divine
And the littleness of his movements
Hides himself

He invents a charm
That makes him invisible
Hides in the hair

Can i hide there too?
Hide in the hair of him
Seek solace
Sanctuary

In that hidden place

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